HOWAMI?

A journey through memory, identity and what it means to truly know oneself

ABOUT THE PROJECT

“How am I?” is a personal exploration of memory and identity.

Through photographs, reflections, and philosophical inquiry, I trace the invisible lines between the past and the present — seeking to understand not just what happened, but who I became because of it.

This project is not about nostalgia or perfection.
It is about confronting my memories honestly, questioning the narratives I inherited, and reconstructing a version of myself rooted in authenticity.

"How am I?" is a conversation with my past and a declaration of presence.

HOW THE IDEA STARTED

For years, I lived feeling that much of what I thought, believed, and expected from life had been built by others — family, culture, religion, society.

After a long period of questioning and emotional exhaustion, I asked myself a simple but profound question:

"How much of what I believe is truly mine?"

That question led me to revisit my childhood memories, the city where I grew up, the cultural and historical forces that shaped me.

HOW AM I? is my attempt to untangle memory from assumption, to find what is truly mine beneath everything I was taught.


THE METHODOLOGY

I structured this journey chronologically, starting from my earliest memories and moving through different stages of life.

For each memory, I explore:

  • Personal recall: what I remember and how it feels today.

  • Contrast: comparing my version with others’ memories or historical facts.

  • Emotional impact: how the experience shaped me.

  • Cultural and historical context: what was happening in Medellín, Colombia, and the world at the time.

I also frame each memory through philosophical lenses — exploring how thinkers like Kant, Hume, Ricoeur, and Fromm can help us understand memory, identity, and the construction of self.


EXAMPLE: THE POOL INCIDENT

One of my earliest memories takes place during a swimming lesson when I was a child.

I remember struggling to cross a pool, swimming between submerged white plastic tables.
At one point, I lost strength and began to sink.

In my memory, my mother was there, watching by the pool.
But when I spoke to her years later, she told me she wasn't present. It was a normal day, and she had left me at the class as usual.

This small divergence between what I remembered and what actually happened made me question the nature of memory itself.

Was my mind protecting me by imagining her presence?

How much of what we remember is real — and how much is what we needed to believe?


PHILOSOPHICAL APPROACH

Philosophy became a vital tool in this project.

  • Kant helped me understand that perception is filtered through our mind’s categories.

  • Hume taught me that identity is not a fixed core, but a bundle of impressions and memories.

  • Ricoeur showed me that we become ourselves through the stories we tell.

  • Fromm reminded me that real freedom means choosing who we are, not just repeating what was given.

HOW AM I? stands at the crossroads of memory and philosophy — seeking not absolute truth, but authentic meaning.

WHAT'S NEXT

This project will evolve into a digital experience where users can upload their own photographs, explore memories, and reflect on their personal histories.

Future features will include:

  • Personal timelines of memories.

  • AI-assisted emotional and historical analysis.

  • Private reflections and journaling tools.

“HOW AM I?” aims to inspire not just personal introspection, but a deeper understanding of how history, culture, and memory intertwine in all of us.


Thank you for walking through these memories with me.

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